Especially when I'm around my friends.
I aint extraordinary, I dont have oh-so-amazing magical powers.
I ain't no majestic being, I'm not anything surprisingly extreme.
I can hype myself up full of good optimism, say that i am one beautiful person, have one amazing voice, a great drawing skill for someone who was never trained to draw well, and is a kick ass gamer for my age.
But once I walk out the door and get into the school, all that goes away like hot air outta a balloon.
I was talking to one of my friends today, and she said:
"I just don't understand you hun. Your beautiful, you have a versatile voice that actually sounds pretty. Your a good drawer, and you play videogames, WITHOUT have to read the manual. And for the boys, you got boobs, and a butt! Seriously, I just don't understand you!"
Well, when you have been nitpicked and criticized for every part of your being almost the majority of your life, you can't help but feel worthless.
the only time I don't feel that way is when i am with my bf but even then I'm doubting if he even really likes being there with me :(
maybe i am just being angsty, im not sure. happy people everywhere, but it seems like i'm stuck in a pessimist realist world.
Agh...sorry for spamming you with this- I just need to rant :3
see ya.